Fiuh!!!

it's been so long since my last post.

well today I don't come up with pictures of my outfit.

I just want to share a little of what I'm feeling right now.

So well as you know that I'm gonna reach my dream in a count of weeks,

I feel a lil depressed this couple of days.
Lack of sleep and a lot of things to do have successfully ruin my health.

I've been asking myself, why the hell I ever dreamed about living in Paris?

 First problem of all, finding a place to live, or else my visa won't be processed. 

With a minimum budget that I have, it's almost impossible to find a place or most of them were already booked.

I found myself stuck in the corner of my room searching for a flat for two people 

for me and a friend of mine

It's been a week and I feel like "this is my limit. I can't afford it anymore".

I've been crying in my prayers asking God to save me from this bad bad dream.

Keep blaming myself for not having the guts to enter FSRD ITB.

after that I start thinking why did I canceled my departure to Caen and change it to Paris.

Living cost is waaay different!

and also having some relatives that don't want to help.

you know, some people said that having a lot of relatives and friends will somehow help you.

And here I tell you what, 

NO MOST OF THEM WON'T!

after 10 people I asked, only 3 or 4 that really wanted to help.

the rest is just "well good luck with that"

and I give you my best loves and thanking you with a lot of prayers for helping me.

And I sit down and start complaining to my super patient boyfriend.

Saying I can't handle it anymore. 

I would rather go back to my first plan of staying in Caen.

But then I start thinking,

I have the best dream ever and I'm about to reach it in a few steps!

A lot of people has been wishing to have the same chance like I do.

 Living in a city of beauty...

a city of romance...

a city of fashion...

I am lucky enough to have the permission to go there,

I am blessed enough to have the chance to study the most beautiful language in the world, "French"

I am blessed enough to be surrounded by people who loves me, who motivates me...

I learned that life is never easy, the more you want, the more obstacles you'll find.

 

I learned a lot this passed 7 months of Uni preparation..

I gain a lot,

I met a lot of good people who opens up my mind.

I've seen a lot of different characters.

I am blessed to be placed in this kind of situation.

Life is beautiful, you just need to see the bright side and learn from it.

 your dream is never to high to be chase, you just need a will, prayers, hard works , and give your best and

dreams do come true. :D

I just got mailed by Université de Caen for the french course that I planned to go last night and they sent me the "attestation de pré inscription". I was one step closer to my visa.

But then today after the meeting with one of my friend's parents, we decided to chose another school which is in Paris. 

So today was a quite hectic day and I only ate a cup of porridge.

But well I am happy cause finally I'm going after my birthday! woohoo! yeayers of december #2 :D

 well hopefully everything will going to be alright, pray for me will ya? :p

okay back to this pics, these were taken yesterday before having a lunch time with my family.

beanies: H&M; tops: flea market; skirt: mds; socks: H&M; heels: bebob; necklace: unbranded

Bon Dimanche!

 sorry for the lack of post, been lazying around my bed reading books and sending emails in french to everyone. yes it is about my departure next month but I haven't got my attestation d'inscription till today so I can't ask for my visa and stuffs! this is driving me crazyyyy!

But finally I've got the time to take some pictures of me wearing the new outfits from last week trip (as I promised you before to post them up)

 Today after church, I took some pics in front of my grandpa's house.

did you notice, at the first picture there's one kind of flower that the color is almost alike with my outfit?

and say hello to my grandpa's best friend, Budo :D

 

 

 

tops: forever 21; skirt: forever21; shoes: topshop

AH FINALLY!

Finally I had the chance to post something again in this blog!

Been busy preparing myself for DELF (it's like TOEFL for french) that I'm going to face next week.

I'm a little bit blue this couple days..

First because the rainy season is here again.

Second because I should go earlier than the date that I've been planning.

I know, it has been my dream to go to France and I've wished to go as soon as possible.

But then like everybody told me before, when you're getting closer to the day of departure, that blue feeling will haunt you..

I'm changing my departure because I finally changed my destination.

So I was actually planning to go in mid February and willing to study at Campus Langue 

before I start my uni life in September.

But then yesterday I found a "better" place to prepare my french in Université de Caen, and I should be there before mid January.... 

I can't even celebrate my birthday with G and the rest of the family! :'(

This is what disappoints me, and I don't even have enough time to prepare everything.

A lot of thing is on my mind right now.. like loads!

 

 
 

 

favorite bracelet!

But then I realized that this is everyone's dream!

Having a quite nice life in France.. reading good books in the park...

I should be grateful for having such a great chance 

tops: cotton ink; shorts: levis; belt: unbranded; shoes: topshop; bracelet: unbranded

Well..
whatever it is, I hope for the best, may God bless us everywhere we go and every choices we'll take..

We plan things to happen, but it's God and only Him who can make it happen.

SO...

what ever it is, be grateful for what you have and let God decide which way to go. 

Do your part and put it in His hand.

Hello!

today I went to G's college to do some business and stuffs

and we met for a couple hours.

Usually it was 45 minutes driving from my house to his college

but as most of you (Jakarta's citizen) knows that today was quite a rainy day, I had a 1 and a half hour driving. Not because the traffic jam, it's simply because I forgot to take the exit at the highway, so I had 45 minutes trying to find another way from Cilandak KKO to Lenteng Agung.

GOSH!

It was such a tiring day, yet I'm happy that I still can see G for a moment.

and before I went off this afternoon, I took some time to picture what I'm wearing today.

Here's the look.

top: pasar baru; jeans: forever21; shoes: topshop

sorry for the bad angle, I'm taking it with my tripod since no one home to help me!
and for those who followed me on instagram might probably know that I just bought this new shoe. I really love it! it's actually a wedge and it makes me feel taller! HAHA.. 

Hello readers!

So yesterday I just had a super tiring day and super stressing one

but in the morning I had a workshop from Nylon Indonesia "Fashion & Art" event

And here's the outfit that I picked.

I actually took this look because I live in Indonesia where there's no winter, but the folds on the neck makes it look like I'm wearing a scarf.

top: tru; shorts: unbranded; stocking: unbranded; boots: unbranded

Bon soir!
sorry for the lack of post, I've been trying to post this for like 3 times but the lack of internet on my phone won't help a bit!
So last Friday I went to the National Museum of Indonesia
well everything was prepared and I brought my cams too
after we entered the museum, and G was about to take some pics of me and the card wasn't there :'(
too bad!
I was screwed and everything, finally I decided to use iPhone's cam
well hopefully it won't screw up my post :|

outwear: Tru; top: pull and bear; skirt: unbranded; shoe: unbranded

Hello again readers!
It's been such a tiring day for me. A lot of things happened and so.
I had less sleep and I had so much things in my head.
I feel like I wanna go somewhere,
a place where no one can find me.
Just me with a canvas and the painting equipment.
So I decided to put a calming colors today, it's a little pastel.

jacket: babe; top: cotton ink; legging: unbranded; shoe: mom's; necklace: unbranded

As for me pastel would bring more calmness.
So good night!